So my divorce was finalized in December. I recently saw a picture of her and it brought up alot of feelings. I haven’t spoke to her since August. I realize I truly f—ked up my marriage. I still care and miss her alot. I feel so depressed right now and it sucks. I don’t want to drink. I’ll have 9 months sober on Friday. But my go to was always the bottle.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Paul.
That sounds incredibly heavy, and I’m really sorry you’re going through all of that. Seeing something like that can reopen wounds you thought were starting to heal, especially when there’s still love and regret there. I respect you so much for staying sober through this—9 months is a huge accomplishment, especially when your old coping tool was the bottle. Feeling depressed right now makes sense, but it doesn’t erase the work you’ve done or the strength you’re showing. I’m really glad you reached out instead of drinking. You don’t have to carry this alone
Dear Paul things will get easier in time just stay on the sober path get to some meetings join some online groups and zoom meetings this will help you staying clean and sober I have 5 years and 7 months clean and sober from meth and alcohol I'm happy to meet you here