Ive been living in a sober recovery house in Chicago for the last month and my roommate, who has been a huge part of my recovery support system was just asked to leave. He was nodding off and acting “peculiar” and could not urine test within 30 minutes of being asked. Unexpectedly I am really surprised how much this has affected me, I am really spun by this and feel a huge loss. Conversely, this is a harsh reminder of how serious early sobriety is, I’m not quite yet in a mental or emotional state to which I can properly manage this so I decided to post my thoughts. In the past I have achieved sobriety and maintained for fair amounts of time, I always overlooked my reactions and responses and didn’t keep in mind how sensitive and vulnerable we are in early recovery, it’s a physiological fact. Best wishes to everyone who works in recovery to succeed in sobriety. This journey is challenging, it’s emotional and has many painful moments. I know most people always praise achieving sobriety and rightly so, but for me it’s sometimes more “basic” than that…I feel like yes sobriety is wonderful and that’s my goal but also what f***ing other option do I have? I’m in my mid forties and “life doesn’t wait” it just happens and I’m so tired of missing out, so again …get busy living or get busy dying… I’ve been dying for a long time, Shante is tough but it’s long overdue. Thanks again.
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It does suck brother! I am a manager of a sober living in Santa Rosa, CA and relapse is the hardest part of the responsibility. People are ready when they are ready. I too fell 3 times when living in sober living, so I understand.
All you can do is be supportive. It is also rewarding when someone returns and succeeds.
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Oh no I’m so sorry! I can imagine it is messing with ur head, prayers up. U got this, stay strong, don’t leave! Tomorrow’s a new day.
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Thank you Amanda.
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Thanks PJ
Be happy and grateful it wasn’t you .
stay strong stay sober!
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