Im 34. If i keep living like this. I might not make it to 35. I destroyed any type of connection i had with my friends and loved ones. Always borrowing money and stealing from them. That's why I'm reaching out online. Your positive comment makes me feel like I'm not as big of a pos as I feel I am. One day I'll make amends to them, but for now. I just have to survive
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I understand where your coming from. When we get to the point where we will do anything to get our fix. I sold all my worldly possession, came close to selling my body for a hit. But we can do this. Stay strong and keep the faith. No matter what it is
Raine Ivy
Sleeping is good try to drink water and try to get to AA meetings people may help you with food or money there
My sponsor found that getting into a long-term treatment was what worked for him to get off the streets and sober. He had time and support to navigate all of the things that go with recovery
I have an alcohol problem. So mine is probably NOT as hard as yours when it comes to addiction. But I know it is so hard. My best advice is to put it off as long as possible. You DONâT have to say âNot ever againâ You just have to say âNot nowâ. Just giving up is not a good option. But delaying it as long as possible is an option and accomplishment in itself. Delay by even a few hours and be proud of that and you wonât be so mad at yourself. I still donât like me, but delaying helps me a little. This time itâs just 23 days without a drink. And all Iâm saying is âNot nowâ. It does get easier if you try that. Even if I started drinking tomorrow. I could say I had a great 17 days (withdrawals 6 days) and will try again. Not succeeding is not a failure, itâs good practice for the next attempt. I know. Good luck.
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Don't say it isn't as hard. We all have our drug of choice! 
I quit meth and crack. ALCOHOL has a HOLD on me
I am fight my addiction but in a different place . But you can do it . It in man nature to fight so fight
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Itâs possible and it starts the moment you make your mind up your done. Is long term treatment a possibility?
I'm with Chrissy on this. After the trauma of homelessness and drug addiction a 6 month program might be the way to go. Get healthy, get some tools, relearn a routine eating and sleeping pattern. Salvation army here offers Viper a free inpatient and outpatient treatment. Let us know how you are doing today.
Get into a long term treatment program will help with both issues
Aloha, I Kno exactly what were going through. I was homeless on the streets of Honolulu Hawaii for the past 8 yrs. I smoked it and for the past 5yrs I shot it. Over 7grms in a 24hr period a day daily. I always said I didn't need to go to treatment, that its mind over matter, until the matter took over my mind, and I needed treatment. I found myself in fetal position fearing my life was in danger, having no control of what was real or not was absolutely scary. Reaching out to my family and they refusing to help me was too much for me to bare. Except my twin, she picked me up and I started detoxing at her house for 3 weeks. In that time still stuck in my head I made plans to go to treatment not on Oahu where I'm from,I went to aloha house on Maui. Just completed my residential treatment on Dec Dec 4th, AND I AM SO HAPPY THAT I WENT. I'M NOT ON THE STREET, I LEARNED WHAT MY TRIGGERS ARE AND THE TOOLS TO GET THROUGH IT. IM IN AN INTENSIVE OUTPATIENT PROGRAM AND SOBER LIVING PROGRAM STILL ON MAUI. ITS 2 WKS BARELY SINCE I STARTED MY IOP/SLP AND I ALREADY GOT A JOB. IM PLUGGED IN WITH NA MEETINGS AND GO TO CHURCH. This isn't the first time I been sober, this is the first time Ive gone to treatment, AND IM SOOO HAPPY THAT I MADE THAT DECISION. the group of people I met their are now my FAMILY, WE RELY ON EACH OTHER, FOR EVERYTHING. WITHOUT THEM I DONT THINK I WOULD HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR. I believe you an do it IF U WANT IT BAD ENOUGH. DEFINITELY CONSIDER TREATMENT IT WORKS IF U WORK IT. OPEN-MINDED NESS IS KEY TO IT. YOU GOT THIS. I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU!
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