Gratitude list>> 3/31/23
- for my recovery path; it is at once a reunification of my head/heart/soul: thesis/antithesis/synthesis: gød/mother/child: communion.
- for my dogs; my totem animal and kindred other-self.
- for a program that has taken me further inward than I've ever been and an understanding and appreciation for the healing I missed from communitas, psych, medicine, religion, coupling, school, work... et al.
- for change; and the awakening of my heart and head habits to it rather than set against it.
- for my job; daily -moment by moment- creating a mesocosmic canvas which allows praxis of principles, theories, experiments, and trial by error of my untenable belief systems tied to hurts, misunderstandings, traumas, and willful incredulity of reality as it is.
- for the painful discomfort of doing the next right thing, and the resent and childish rage at being denied instant gratification.
- for my sposnor; a higher power that is waning in respect to what must supplant it.
- for my childish reluctance and hesitation in coming back to gød-centeredness as opposed to codependent crutches or consuming self-centeredness.
- for my fellows and friends; when I sink to that pit of doubt, that you all carry in some part what I need to pull myself out.
- for feelings; you remind me like a swift kick in the ball$ and d¡ck that while things felt may seem important at the moment... all things pass (thx George Harrison).
- for my heart; new crushes, curiosities, oddities, and sexual healing, in and out of the bedroom.
- for music; savage, tragic, joyfully me.
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