Somedays

Idk, sometimes i feel stuck. Not sure it is necessarily my recovery related... Just coming out of my marriage, getting ready for a divorce. Kids all older teenagers. My son is in Kentucky at 18... Just graduated and starting his own life along with my momma's help. :heart:
Then my two girls which are, 15 & 16 both chose to stay with their dad. Because of the freedom they have. Neverless im very active in their lives..... But to honest im struggling emotionally, mentally, and spiritually..... Who am i outside of being a full-time mother? Who am i outside of this being i molded myself into for the sake of family, and our kids. Ontop of sobriety.... But hey im clean today.... And still pushing... And although everything seems like its not getting any better, i know it's not worth going back... And even if i am alone right now, I'm clean, im sober, and even if no one else can..... I know my worth!:ok_hand::heart::100:

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Time takes time , Time to adjust to your new life , talk to your sponsor and pray to your higher power it will talk time an maybe live for yourself it may take a little adjustment but you can do this , I have faith in you

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Thank you for your advice :blush:

Life may not be getting better but you are one day at a time. The thing I discovered about sobriety is that life still happens yet because I'm sober I'm so much better equipped to deal with it.

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Thanks for the advice! That's pretty much what I'm doing. Taking it day by day... Moment by moment if necessary lol

Great share

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Find gratitude. I lost my kids to their father. Seven years I wasn’t even allowed to see or speak to them. They’re still in your life that’s a blessing a lot of us don’t get. Stay busy in AA go to more meetings talk to your sponsor if your still working the steps finish them. Start helping other. The busier you stay the less time you have to worry about the other stuff. Thanks for sharing and good luck :heart:

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Thanks :blush:

What an exciting place to be. I remember stepping into this phase myself, and honestly, it didn’t feel exciting at first. I was seeing everything through a fog of old pain and fear. But as I started digging into trauma, personal growth, and what it means to evolve as a sober person, things shifted. I began discovering parts of myself I’d never met before, and the journey turned into something I actually looked forward to.

Keep your hope alive. Try writing down the things you love or what you’re curious to explore. Maybe think about picking up a new skill or even going for a diploma. No matter what you choose, we’re right here with you, cheering you on every step

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Thank you so much girly! I've taken it day by day and for the most part I do pretty well. Idk, I just have my days. And when I do I keep busy with family or friends! Sobriety isn't really what I'm struggling with.... It's adjusting to the life outside of what "wife and mom!" Consistented of... Especially with figuring out who I am outside of my marriage!

That says it YOUR WORTH. you are strong , you are smart. You have this just put it all in God's Hands and put your faith in Him. I promise you that's all it takes

It gets better

I definitely know the feeling well not the marriage but I've been having a hard time figuring out who i am without the drugs it's been my identity for so long and the hardest thing I think I've dealt with on my journey is the loneliness

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