Somehow didn’t relapse today but struggling

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#1

Today I got attacked by 10-15 transphobic people on social media. Telling me to unalive. That I’m a waste of life. DM’s of being raped, tortured and murdered. That I’m a predator. It crushed me. I went numb. I truly started to believe it. I had to pick up meds today. Im the same parking lot is the liquor store I went to daily. I somehow didn’t do it.

I don’t want this to turn political. But I wish people could maybe have some empathy. I’ve known 3 people since last year die from drugs. I’ve known 5 trans individuals from social media unalive. Its so hard to stay positive and see any hope or glimmer in our society. I have no option to give up.

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#2

Hi, if you haven't already, find meetings and support groups in your area. Find a sponsor. Start working the steps. As far as social media maybe keep it to a minimum. Just my opinion but I find social media to be another problem to deal with that I have the option to avoid.

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#3

Don’t let the hate win. They are ignorant & fearful. Your life is beautiful and deserving of all the love the world has to offer. Don’t forget that.

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#5

It can be tough to stay positive, especially when we are trying to do it all ourselves. I'm sorry to hear all that you have gone through. I can empathize, as ai am troubled to have learned recently that 7 of the 150 or so individuals that I went to rehab with back in 2022 have passed. One was murdered and the rest... well, you know the story.

I am lucky to be back in rehab where I am reminded that the output is often a direct result AND reflection of the input. That said, surround yourself with those who have qualities that you desire. Keep your head up. Please don't relapse. Keep on pushin'!

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#6

I suggest not engaging or visiting social media. And don’t watch the news. Avoid toxicity and get and stay real close to the sober community.

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#7

Living with the haters is quite a challenge. I admire your strength and courage. Continue to love yourself and tune out the hate. I know it’s difficult, but don’t engage with these ignorant imbeciles. Continue to work on yourself so you live yourself more, and aren’t as affected but what these sick people think or say. Great job not picking up btw! This is a huge win for you. You were challenged, and made it thru. I hope all the love and support you do have can far outweigh the hate

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#8

I am so sorry you had to deal with that stuff. Do know this: you are a valuable person and the world is better with you in it.
Definitely stop with the social media for now if it’s curtailing your sobriety.
You are better than that.

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#9

Also, if you need me just say so. I’m here.

#10

You've done he right thing-stay out of the liquor store. I'd go one step further and suggest finding a group and working steps its so much better than going through all that alone.

#11

I'm sorry for these woes; nice job turning down the booze! It never helps, regardless of what's going on around us right?

#12

I agree with Hilary. Get off social media where you are exposed to that unbelievable amount and level of hatred. That’s awful and so harmful to your mental health. People are so d@mn mean and usually lash out at others bc they’ve got issues of their own and it makes them feel better to hate on others. They don’t deserve an ounce of your time and energy. Hang in there and get away from that nonsense. You are worth it and deserve to be happy, healthy and sober.

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#13

Its unfortunate that people are like that, but your last sentence gives me the impression your going on the right road.

#14

Rylee! I'm so proud of you for not relapsing. Get off that social media sh*t and laugh at the haters, rise above it, ignore and don't respond. Except for Loosid lol. Stay brave, strong, and keep being your best sober self. ODAAT! :butterfly: Peace

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#15

Don’t listen to them, it’s all going to be alright, keep doing your thing and lean into those that support you!

#16

I really appreciate your kind words :heart: After all the messages and everything I deactivated all my socials everywhere. Now looking back on it I really think I was starting to get addicted to social media. It was a hard day but I can handle this :slightly_smiling_face: Thank you so much!

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#17

Thank you for your kindness :heart: I deleted and deactivated all my socials. I’ve never been attacked that hard. Whenever I start to feel numb, things can go back. I don’t want to self sabotage my life. So I’m going to push though the best I can :heart: Thank you so much :heart:

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#18

Of course! I’m proud of you and yes, you can handle this. Stay strong💪 Deleting those hateful trolls is so important for your mental health and growth. Don’t let them get the best of you bc that’s what they want. You just keep being you, staying sober and working to be the best version of You! You got this Rylee😊

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