Something to make me feel normal . Something to sustain me .. do I hate being alone with myself this much that I have to find an escape ? Or is it normal to not want to be alone ? Somewhere in between ? Idk . My kids … how different would my son see me if I would have gotten it together when he was born ? 5 years ago .. my addiction issues started with fet when he was two but I was always an angry person .. what am I mad at ? Why do I sit here every day mad instead of living my life ? It’s either I’m loved correctly or I’m using .. “ normal “ right
