Sometimes I feel like I was born with autism, and I really struggle with it. I often find myself hating who I am because of it. It feels like I’ve established a negative path for myself due to these feelings. I still don’t like living with this condition, which seems to be a part of my life forever. I just want to break free from this sense of boredom and frustration.
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Don’t let it feel like a life-sentence… find freedom in it. You have an answer as to why you were feeling displaced and estranged all along. You’re wired differently (and so am I). Alcohol is a depressant which used to alleviate some of the overstimulation for me, made me more socially cognizant (so I thought)… I struggle with the frustration and boredom too, try taking a drive here and there. Going to meetings helps. Here if you ever want to talk. I was diagnosed at 25.
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I know it is a freedom. It is something different but also it's just a struggle that you had it all this time. And I discovered by myself on one bad day, we're in my 20s and then I just feel like how much of a challenge. It, I'm sorry I had to go through things and you have to go through a lot of things and your 20s as well and I hope you're doing better than what you were. I'm trying to do the same for me right now.
Have you thought about exploring new hobbies or things you used to enjoy? Sobriety is a great time to rediscover what makes you happy or try something completely new