I was dropped by my sponsor today. I wasn't working my first step fast enough and a few days after Christmas he sent me a "Dear Sponsee" text. Kind of feel some type of way about it...
Steph, allow me to assist.
Do you know for a fact and are you thoroughly convinced that you're an alcoholic?
You can do it only you can help your self I once was told this and it worked I stop the negativity now am on positive things way better then negative yeeeahh boooy
Well i cant be your sponsor but i say smart stuff sometimes. You ever want to talk ill be around. Ok bye
Steps 1&2 for me can be summed up by simply realizing that I had made alcohol my higher power. Alcohol was my solution to all my problems. Once I realized that I was easily able to admit that I was an alcoholic and my life had become unmanageable. And then it wasn’t such a stretch to think oh well I used to believe in a higher power named alcohol maybe it’s not so crazy to think there could be a better one out there to replace it. And so I came to believe that a higher power could indeed restore me to sanity. If you’re struggling with steps 1&2 maybe think about it like that :). It worked for me.
That was probably the best tging that could have happened!
This is your life and sobriety. Do not let anyone tell you different. If you are sober it's working.
Step 1 is a step I have never ever even attempted.
Be you. Stay clean.
Please consider that the work of step one was already done "out there."
I'm actually an addict... But the disease is the same just a different outlet to mask the symptoms
Ok .. I wish you luck
I appreciate the insight... I definitely know that I have the compulsive response to use and lose all that I have with no ability to apply the brakes on my own. I definitely give it to God to give me my second chance. It's just shitty when you hear a sponsor claim to want better for you then decide they are done due to me being busy Christmas week. I should take responsibility for not finishing the step I started but can't help feel resentment to the man who claimed to be a guide threw this process I'm committed to.
A friend once told me at an AA meeting that AA was for people that have a DESIRE not to drink, not for just completely sober people.
It's gotta be a good fit both ways. F@#* him. Stay sober without him.