laying on the floor of my bedroom, staring at the ceiling… I really REALLY miss drugs right now. I miss Xanax so much, and any other relaxing type of drug. I’m so glad I don’t have any right now, but at the same time I wish I did. If I did have some; I’d take them. Today marks 70 days sober from benzodiazepines. Started my sober journey Jan 10th, 2022… had a few hiccups, but I’m doing well. Night time is definitely the worst. I think i’m just going through the grieving process. I miss it like I lost someone. I miss the comfort it gave me, and i’m afraid I’ll never feel that comfort again…
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Night is usually hardest for most addicts, I think. Maybe because addiction tends to stem from underlying emotional issues that can lead to racing thoughts; I know half the reason I used to drink/use was just to shut my brain up so I could sleep. When those issues are addressed and healed- which does take some time- you find yourself able to relax and sleep without needing to use.
Stay strong, I know it's hard.
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I applaud you. Benzos are one of the hardest things to get off of....please hang in there as your brain chemistry normalizes. 
You are doing awesome!
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Music, music is a total way to escape. Softest Crystal Singing Bowls Sound Bath | Anxiety | Stress | Meditation | 432Hz | Sleep Sounds - YouTube
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Try that after a super hot bath or shower trust me. The crystal bowl link I sent is the business
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wow I love this! Thank you
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