Starting over, again. I decided to give up alcohol this summer. Best decision I made for myself. I was enjoying my improved energy, clarity and overall pride for getting away from alcohol. Fast forward to this week, my first wedding anniversary and Thanksgiving are a few days apart. I thought I might be okay to have a glass of wine at those dinners as a special occasion and celebration. What shouldn’t be a surprise, but seems to get me every time is that I know I’m not a nornal drinker nor do I have a good relationship with alcohol. I simply cannot have one or two glasses of wine. I’ve found myself drinking again in the between those events and since. I’m still committed to getting away from alcohol and reminding myself these incidents are data points - not total failure. This time around I’ve come here to find support through Community and connectivity. Will power alone is hard to stop a pattern my nervous system is tied to. Looking forward to connecting with new friends in sobriety. Thanks for coming to my TED Talk 
Thank you for sharing glad you are here and I suggest you build a support group and find ways to distract yourself when you get cravings
Admitting defeat to alcohol is a process. It took me a lot of “data points” to get to the point where I learned my ultimate truth. It’s hard to wrap your head around that you can’t just a have a drink or two once in a while. My path of sobriety is the AA way. The language is a bit “hard core” to a lot of people. I’m a believer in many paths. One thing I love about AA is the belief that the substances are just a symptom, and we must work on our thinking/perspective to recover. I hear some of the similar things in your Ted Talk (lol). Be mindful on a daily basis, stay connected, and continue to work on yourself. You got this
Skylar, thanks for sharing. You seem very intelligent and will learn from these experiences.
Welcome!
Always here if you want to talk
You and me too....spent most of this year sober and loved it...!! Then boom I'm drinking in the morning with coffee. It's nice to read that I'm not alone..I'm so stubborn and smart, but I have the struggle of getting up and doing something about my issues.. Instead I bed dread..when in reality doing my dishes would actually make me feel better haha. I'll go do that now 
sending positivity your way!
Thank you so much!
Many often make the same mistake. You got this Skylar!
Hi Skyler,
Good of you to share this with everyone. We all learn from each other. I too, tried to limit my drinking but it’s NEVER worked out for me. I’ve been drinking for most of my adult life. You’d have thought I would have been able to discipline myself… wrong. I’m 6 months sober and just can’t believe it. I feel amazing except for the guilt, shame and anxiety of what I did. Stay busy girl! I surely am and some of the time it’s uncomfortable.
lol Ted talk. You are remarkably self aware and have a really good perspective about where you are. You’ve done it before and can do it again. Thanks for the post.
God bless you for making it back. I know that I have another drunk in me. But I don't know if I have another sobering up in me.
I've learned the hard way many times over I am not a normal drinker, OR opiate user. One drink easily turns into a 1.75L of vodka or a few oxy turns into lines of Heroin for me. It all has to stop for me to make it. I should be dead many times over, if I continue using my days are numbered.