Today is day 5 no meth and day 1 no alcohol. I’m really feeling all of the emotions right now that comes along with another relapse and bender. Lately I have been trying to find the strength to just get up in the morning. And the courage to reach out for help. Im sick and tired of being sick and tired. I want so badly to make it through this struggle. I want it more then ever before! And I know I can’t do it on my own! Hoping this app will help. (:
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I just passed five years of no meth. Some of the effects will take longer to get over, but the longer you go the better it will get. I am so glad I quit before I completely ruined my brain and body. Congratulations, keep moving forward
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Congrats on reaching out! That is more courageous than you know. Have considered rehab? You may need a bit more than just an app and a few meetings. They can teach you the tools and you can practice in a safe place. I hope you continue on the journey. You already made the hardest step… now comes putting one foot in front of the other.
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Thank you so much!
Thank you!! And congrats on 5 years! That’s huge!
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Thank you! And yes I have considered detox and inpatient but right now I am looking more into outpatient. Being a part of those groups and meetings and having a sponsor is what helped me stay sober before. Once I didn’t have those things anymore I fell back off.
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Gotcha! Well keep reaching out! When we stop focusing on the small things every thing gets bigger!
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Good job. Do you mind me asking how you initially stoped? Did you say “tonight is it” then woke up and not touch it?
Or was it in the middle of the day? Did you go to a program? Or that bad place where one usually goes cuffed in a car with lights… (I don’t even like to say it!)
The reason why am asking is I’m having a really hard time with the “stopping” the initial stop… if that makes sense so I’m kind of just asking people how they stopped. And congratulations! It’s not easy!! I know!
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This is a good spot to be. Lots of good people here! You got this!
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Please reach out anytime. My story includes relapse as well. It takes what it takes. The big achievement here is you keep trying. You have a new sobriety date, that qualifies you as a MIRACLE. We are here to help you when you feel like you can’t help yourself.
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Jenn, I know AA is not the answer for everyone but it sure is helping me. There are people from every walk in life in AA. And, you choose the “God of your understanding “. The people in the zoom meetings are really caring and you will find people with various doc’s. Mine happens to be alcohol.
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The main thing with me was, how bad do I want it? I noticed that if I want it bad enough and work at it I can do it I haven't been clean/sober this long since I was 14 and I can't begin to tell u how much better I feel and truly happy for once.
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You should be really proud of yourself!! Change and wanting more out of life is really hard to achieve when we are used to settling for what we are used to and comfortable with.(regardless of how toxic it was).. Look at you now. you are trying something new.you are trying new ways to achieve your sobriety goals. when you feel like things are unfamiliar and new and you are out of your comfort zone that means you are trying new things and fighting your addictions. Learning from our mistakes and recognizing our triggers and weaknesses is what makes us strong. You are stronger than you are giving yourself credit for..look how far you have come so far and where you are heading. great job!!!!
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I’m praying 
for you and everyone here ! I’m very thankful I found this app 
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You got this, Jenn!
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Thank you! I was crashing off the meth and just knew I didn’t want to do more because it would just be the same cycle over and over again. Use and crash, use and crash and I didn’t want to do it anymore. I knew it’d be hard but I wanted that to be the last time I ever crashed. So I dumped the rest. And promised myself I wouldn’t get more. It’s been really hard though. I’ve been struggling mentally and went through the withdrawals and psychotic episodes but the once you get through the first 48 hours which I have been told is the hardest, you can get through the rest! I was just sick and tired of being sick and tired. But sometimes we need that extra help from others because we can’t do this alone. Feel free to reach out to me anytime though, no judgements here❤️
Thank you all for your kind words!!! They are all much appreciated!!
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All good…. Don’t look back.
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Yes this is an amazing app! There are so many cool people to talk to and get advice from. If you have a problem most likely someone else here had the same one and can share! If you are having issues you can try talking to your doctor to give you help like meds or something to help you succeed. Good for you!
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Jenn
It sounds to me like you probably need to start by checking yourself into a treatment center. If I were in your shoes I probably wouldn't try to go this one alone.
I have never been on meth before. I've been an alcoholic all of my life. I only know that if you want to stay sober you're going to have to be willing to walk through the pain. What happens if you pick up a drink or do meth? The relief that you feel will be very short lived and sooner or later you're going to be right back where you are at this moment. Except now you will have all the guilt that goes with it to carry around in addition to what you have to carry around already. And the wheel goes round and round. This is called the Insidious cycle of insanity. Over and over and over again.
Let me give you something that applies to all addiction regardless of what your drug of choice is.
“Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are
restless, irritable and discontented
unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the
phenomenon of craving
develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this
person can experience an
entire psychic change
there is very little hope of his or her recovery.”
Can you relate to any of this at all?
I tried to leave out the three most important parts of that message in the open by itself. They include,
Why you pick up,
Why you can't control it,
And what the solution is.