After almost 6 months of sobriety (longest I’ve been sober besides ages 0-15) I had a relapse in April that spiraled into a month of cocaine use daily. I had used cocaine before but not like this. Went from pot, lsd, mushrooms, mdma, mda, ketamine to buying grams of coke everyday because that’s all my dealer had. I spent almost all I saved in my sobriety and almost ruined all my relationships I had built and repaired in that time in just a month and a half of using again. As of 2 days ago I asked for help and checked myself into a rehab facility in the Midwest. I had been filled with shame, feelings of failure, fear for the past and future. I would be lying if I said those feelings weren’t still lingering but I am trying to listen to those around me saying i am strong for asking for help and trying to start over again. I really want to make more change/set up better community/support/tools in my toolbox to prevent relapse in the future. I don’t wanna live in this cycle anymore. I am grateful I was able to come here and detox. I don’t wanna watch myself fall again. Thank you for your time
