Why do I continuasly keep thinki.g I need to get high
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I knew that feeling. I always thought it made things better, and maybe for a time it did, but then eventually it consumed me . I became dysfunctional and I had to put it all down. How much time sober do you have, G?
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Man, it can be a process. I'm almost 2 mo clean again and still get cravings. I smell fentanyl coming out my pores. Can't escape it. I do know the more distance I get in days, the less I have those thoughts. Just wish I was at 18mo instead of two. Moreso, glad I woke up, regardless of the awful circumstances, last time I DID pick up. I shouldn't have. That was a wake up call and some days I feel like I'm failing to hear it. I remain sober, but feel like I'm 1 really bad day away from chosing death, yet again. Not willfully, but might as well be when your DOC is fent.
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My addiction/ego wants me dead but will settle for my misery. My addiction is obsessive and persistent. I realized alone im powerless and needed help. I went to in person AA/NA meetings daily for over a year, got sponsors, did the 12 steps multiple times, made sober friends, and got super involved in my sober program.
15 years of solid sobriety now and grateful!
Iām here if you want to talk.
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Today I was caught with a bowl so like no sober time
Keep your sober time it's well deserved, I was clean for 8 yrs till this past year. I need to stop worrying about my family and put me first
Thank you D I have never been to treatment or a meeting maybe it's time
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Absolutely.You're no good to them if you're no good to yourself
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I don't know how you did it for 8 years.
Without treatment or meetings
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I was in prison stopped using there and beat the odds found my higher power gave myself to his grace a d had a couple of friends who helped me get through it
You can be on a NATURAL HIGH. CHANGE YOUR THOUGHT.. CHANGE YOUR MAN
Yeah for me the meetings are like Oman ongoing maintenance trenching. Similar to fueling up each week. Some weeksn1 is enough, others I am doing great my zoom call 2-3x that week also.
Cunning baffling powerful without help it is to much for us
G ... I say this jokingly. Go stand on the toilet. You'll be high on pot.