step one but how you realize your powerless over alcohol and the fact that your life become manageable once you decide
and accept that things really get better
The Blackouts were #1 example of my powerlessness over alcohol. Having no recall of what I was doing while under the influence, and no predictability whether I'd have a blackout or not when I drank .. . Still chancing it every time I drank because I wanted the effect of blocking bad feelings...