Admitting that I am powerless and my life has become unmanageable.
Admitting to powerlessness was a very tough pill for me to swallow. Powerlessness meant weakness to me. Powerlessness meant I was a bad mother, daughter and sister.
Being an EMT and admitting that I was powerless was EXTREMELY hard to do. How can I, a person who is entrusted to save lives say that I am powerless and my life has become unmanageable.
The answer, God. I had to give my life and my power over to God. I needed a higher power than myself to keep myself in check. I then started to realize that admitting that I am powerless was actually POWERFUL. I became so much more powerful admitting I needed help and my life was unmanageable.
I thank God every day for giving me the power of being humble and able to see my mistakes and to learn from them, one day at a time.