Still chasing a buzz

Recovery
#1

I'm having trouble regulating everything.
I think im still trying to satisfy my cravings for a buzz with food or vape or even binging a TV show.
No matter what I do I still feel a bit un fulfilled.
I'm at 490 days and I don't think about booze at all. Is it possible my body still does?

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#2

It's really hard to fight muscle memory, no matter how long it's been

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#3

I’ve got six years clean and alcohol. Talk to me every day still but then I remember nothing changes. Nothing changes so I don’t pick up that drink.

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#4

…I may have stopped chasing fulfillment altogether?

I’m just so glad that I am not the drunk I was-not
t h a t long ago.

I feel unfulfilled throughout many moments, throughout many days.

I consume far too many sweet things.
Candy, ice cream, etc.
But I walk a lot.
And engage in other positive choices.
Congratulations on 490 days!

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#5

We all have things we used to replace alcohol partially. Those things are a lot better than alcohol though. We are addicts for sure, and we will do it in other parts of our lives. Once you're ready you can address those if they become issues, such as overeating and vaping.

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#6

Saaaaame I'll be 2 years next month and I feel I need soommethingg today I figured when I feel like that, maybe it's a good time to go to the gym.

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#7

I know I can get higher but never high enough so stop :stop_sign: I remember that. It was dark

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#8

My first few years off alcohol felt the same way. I kept at it and it got better. I just had to keep going.

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#9

Jessica I hit the gym hard yesterday to try an get my head straight. It always seems to help.

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#10

It’s ok.
Nobody ever got thrown in jail or lost their house for over snacking.

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#11

Ugh I gotta get up and go, I feel better when I'm done.

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#12

Great testimony Jessica! Just read your bio and I am so impressed with your courage!!!

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#13

Thank you for reading it and the kind words.

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#14

Yeah going to the gym is clutch.

Also, I think is helpful to look for new experiences. New books, restaurants, new hobbies.

(E.g. my first sober summer I bought a baritone ukulele and learned to play it!)

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