Newly sober & dealing w/ daily if not hourly realizations of huge problems, relationships ruined as a result of my drinking. Definitely all the good stuff in my life is out - i dont even remember conversations & the shame is out of control. It feels easier to just accept the loss of the loved one than face them admitting all this shameful stuff … about how much id been drinking and lying to cover it up. Ugh.
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Sorry your struggling. Early sobriety is a battle. I went tru daily verbal beat downs from my family (justifiably so) for the first 3-6 months. It was brutal. Thank goodness I had the support of a sponsor and some men I met at AA meetings. I don’t think I’d be where I am today without my them. I encourage you to find some support and help. The intensity and frequency of the verbal beat downs began to dissipate after about 6 months of me being in recovery and keeping my side of the street clean. It does get better if you get and stay sober. You will heal, and your loved ones will also heal. Sometimes it takes them longer because they don’t have as many the resources as us in recovery. Stay sober and give it time 
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Reach out for help. Get in to AA. Go through the steps. They will help you to make amends and start over. One day at a time. It will get better. Stay sober it is worth it
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Only thing that finally helped me was truly letting go of my past and forgiving myself. Realizing after years of seeking and finding things to do to so called heal finally led me to just knowing I could’ve continued the search and effort until the last minute. Create a new better story for yourself and dream big for your new life. Don’t get sucked into more doing and get led around of you need this and that to be whole and complete you already are! We all are and just need to wake up to it! Theres nothing to heal thats all made up to keep us in fear. All thats needed is to retrain the mind and lose all the garbage patterns from childhood and experiences we had through life! I waste so much time before figuring that out! If you want I can send some books that I know will turn all of this around. Im driving if theres typos…
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The social detox from our behaviors takes time as it involves others. Overtime you'll recognize problems in life don't go away however you won't be the source of them AND you will have greater capacity to deal with them.
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Definitely open to book recommendations! Thanks
The game of life and how to play it by Florence Shinn. Theres amazing narrator on YouTube channel nevillution. Youll love her voice and other readings. You can turn all of this around in the right direction with strong focus.
I did alot of things I used to regret but the past doesn’t exist anymore. Just really pay attention to the advice you get on this path. I listened to so many saying do this try this people. Some that were working on themselves
for over 30 years!! I have compassion for them truly but not enough to take a lifetime to get through this! Just go in saying I am powerful and got this. Listen to empowering I am affirmations also to build you back up! Take care
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Sounds amazing hearing this alone… Well I’d be pleased enough if you could friend me or send me a message invitation. Thank you
Listening to some of the Nevillution vids and yeah - it hits different than anything else out there! I’m sick of all the time wasted and don’t want to be in the mindset of “I have another 6mo, or 2 years or whatever it is - in order to enjoy life again.” Maybe it’s the addict mindset of wanting immediate results but hey - in this case, maybe faking it until ya make it is helpful! No need to keep searching, but start changing your thoughts to already being where u want to be.
Really happy you found your light and power!!! It really comes down to deciding my new story is….. and sticking to it no matter what we see in 3d
It all starts inside! I never would’ve believed this before I started seeing change and people truly coming at me different! We create it all!!!
I created so many stories of i will be better after I do this healing or if I do enough yoga I will get closer to whatever I thought I was searching for. And finally it clicked that I decide Im good right now and this life is amazing right now!
Focus on what works, what keeps you sober. Don't get distracted. Don't put energy into negative things