Stimulants are controlling me

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#1

I had a really bad problem with adderall for a couple years. I switched to vyvanse and that has turned into a problem too.

I originally thought the adderall problem was bc I was needing to be a high performer at work but now I think this whole deal with stimulants is just me trying to avoid the constant feelings of emptiness.

But now I’m scared if I stop taking them I won’t be able to perform well in my career and everything will fall apart. When I don’t take them I can’t focus at all but I have gone through a months prescription in less than 2 weeks so it’s pretty bad.

Nobody really knows and I feel super alone and frustrated with myself.

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#3

It's ok Christina! Drugs are filthy little liars! They tell you things like, " you can't do this without me" and "life is better with me then without me" and "I'll make you happy" All the things drugs say to you are untrue and once you realize that it's like the spell can be broken and they no longer have power over you because you don't have to believe them. You are not alone.

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#4

I’ve been there. I have been off adderall since December. I was on it for 11 years. I wasn’t abusing it but I did become dependent on it. I couldn’t get out of bed with out it. I drank on it. I used it as a hangover remedy. I started needing more and more. When I ran out before I could refill it, I went into panic mode because I eventually couldn’t work if I didn’t have any.
Maybe I was abusing it. Idk but feel free to dm me if you want to talk or have any questions.