Stopped smoking crack for a day
Was so hard, I was such a *itch!!
I ended up taking f’ing molly, and bars instead.
Idk how to not believe I NEED something….
Some speed ball concoction.
I’m pathetic . Leaving the most beautiful soul I know and my baby girl Nellie, my Aussie.
For another person and the ability to “ do what I want “
So foolish.
I constantly post at night my regrets, by morning it’s all I can think of.
I need the strength to say no, just once,
Guide my will and my life, keep me sober , get me sober , keep me alive at least, and allow this to help someone.
Good night