So I just started on this app this past Sunday and told myself that I was going to stop using stimulants Monday, April 29th.
Well everyday this week including today I have used and came up with excuses to keep my addiction going.
I feel like what's happened is that I've told myself I'm going to quit so many times over the years and havent that it's as if I'm not even really taking myself that serious anymore. I'm just saying it, but not wanting to really put the work in.
Well tomorrow is my birthday and starting tomorrow I am going to do whatever it takes to not escape through pills and energy drinks.
I'm not making any more excuses of why it makes sense to keep my addiction going for just one more day. If I do that then I'll just come up with another reason to use again. I know how this works.
Tomorrow could just be another birthday or it could be the birthday where I finally said no and meant it.