Straight up. Im struggling.
My family is toxic ans does nothing but remind me of my past in addiction. Ive hit the block button so many times this week and im struggling. 50 days and the bottle is calling my name.
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Don't give in to the bottle!! One day at a time...sometimes 1 minute of a time. Be proud of yourself.
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You are strong enough to not give in to the bottle, you’ve made it 50 days!
As much pain as you are going thru, they probably are too!
Part of recovery is learning to forgive, they are not there yet…give them time.
In the mean time Don’t listen to the peanut gallery!
Thank you for reaching out!
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Don’t be afraid to cut out toxic people, even if it’s family. Doesn’t have to be forever but if they are affecting your sobriety then you need to protect your peace. If that’s not possible you at least need to set some clear boundaries. Congrats on your 50 days Michael, you have proven that you can make it this far and you know you have it in you to go further!
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You can get through this!! Toxic family is so hard to deal with. Just walk away when they talk to you like that. Don't engage in that negativity. So much love and many hugs sent your way. Just get through today, tomorrow is another day.
50 days is a lot, I never thought I would get one, but just keep on staying sober! Reach out like you’re doing now. It is worth it my friend, just to see how beautiful life is sober!
Bro !! Under all circumstances do not pick up that bottle .. The problems infront of you are no bigger than the problems behind you
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50 days is huge and you have lots to offer in this world .Especially in AA
We have to be selfish in recovery and think of yourself, not what others think of you.
50 days is a big deal. I know the urge feels strong right now, but that time you’ve put in matters. You don’t have to go back.
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Keep going keep busy...bottle is the dark side trying to get you back....sorry you have added pressure from family
Let go of the toxicity: let's celebrate 51 days sober:pray: pray the Serenity prayer and try and join a meeting even if it's zoom. The community has a 24/7 meeting. Hang in there brother 
alcohol will only cause more problems. Trust me the shame and guilt of relapse sucks. Do whatever you can to get past the urge and celebrate 51 days.
My family was not comfortable with me breaking out of the role of needy drunk..I learned to set boundaries. I was willing to go to any length. If that meant finding a new family than so be it.Plus, I framed the shorts I detoxed in and hung them right at my door so every day I'm reminded of what was in store for me if I drank..their still there and I'm sober since Aug 7,2021..we get sober and we stay sober ..GOOD LUCK..
But your family being toxic is just that your family being toxic that doesn’t mean that you need to be a part of it at least right now, take time for yourself and set some boundaries, that bottle ain’t going nowhere and is only gonna put you in the worst position and you know it. So when you’re done with the insanity, set some boundaries with the toxic people in your life, and remember if we can do it, you can do it.