Today, I’m struggling with sadness. Several things coalescing all at once and none of it new but getting sober, while being single for the first time over 20 years and ending a very nasty divorce, makes for a lot of alone time that I normally tolerate well, but not today. My best sober friend is a travel nurse and today is his last day on the job, so I think it’s just too much for my heart and mind to balance today. Fear of insecurity is activating in this moment and I just need to acknowledge that to the universe. I’m not feeling very emotionally sober today and have to work through it. Anyone else struggle with sadness randomly?
I’m generally a live in the present well-grounded guy, so it’s weird when I’m suddenly not. In the past, this would have been a night of dancing and drinking to numb the discomfort and get myself into a happier mood (at least temporarily). But sobriety has left me just sitting in the discomfort and I’m not sure how to move past it yet today.