Struggle to find myself. I left my ex husband of

Struggle to find myself. I left my ex husband of 14yrs cuz he thought is was cool to have a gf. So I chose me then he ripped my son from me I haven't seen it talked to or kissed my baby in 2yrs. I've spiraled into a dark place. I have no one I have no hope nothin. I don't want to wake up. I've been sleeping for a week

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Hold on tight to your higher power. Life is full of curveballs and this is one of them. It’s about how you come out on the other side. Grieving is a natural response and you deserve the right to do so.

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I've not experienced your predicament and I'm sorry you have to endure it. Though, I have been in complete depressive nihilism before, which is similar in that one sees no point in waking up or getting out of bed ; the dream world somehow offers more solace than our reality. It took years to dig out for me , but you have to start with small goals in the beginning; just brush your teeth or shower what have you. You start rewiring your reward center (dopamine) to experience positivity in accomplishment...alot of us have screwed this up with drugs and booze. Anyhew start small and build up, one day at a time. Know you are not , and will never be, alone in this journey. Good luck.

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Sounds like it’s time to talk with a professional. Dr. or Physiatrist, Therapist.
Get some help. Life can be great in sobriety.
Hang in there your worth it!

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The big thing now is to just not add any more junk to the pile you have. One day at a time don’t drink or use, and things get better for you, your son, and your ex husband. When my ex left me for a guy she was using with, at first she ended up with custody. Fast forward 10 years later. I have custody of the kids. My oldest just went off to college. I haven’t engaged in any kind of argument with my ex wife in years. I had to forgive her in my heart for my kids. The first thing I had to do was to put the hammer down and stop beating myself with it.

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Go to church today or watch it online. It worked for me. I struggled for 20 years with drinking. Because of God, I haven't had a drink since New Year's day. Check out Lakewood live on YouTube. Service starts at 9:00 CST. Take care and praying for you.