If we didn't have a broken forgotter we might not have a problem. I thought about it tonight, sunny outside, reward for job well done at work until I 
realized that I would be miserable, starting over, depressed, self esteem in the trash....anxiety, shakes, derailed emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually. So, I put on a movie, ordered Mexican and am relaxing. 
Tomorrow is a new day for us both.
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Why not? Because the life Iāve built is too good, and too valuable to throw away on that junk. Because the eyes of all my people still stuck in the life are watching me. I have to be an example of success. Because I donāt want to die.
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Why not? I had a friend once tell me to let everyone hear you roar. I have built this life that has been extremely hard and difficult to build since Iāve been sober. Iāve worked too hard to get where I am at to just throw it away and have to start over again. I am strong, resilient and will always continue to work on myself and this life Iāve built since Iāve quit drinking nearly three years ago. Nothing will ever make me go back to those days of drinking heavily and destroying everything. Anyone who might still be struggling, you can do it. Take it one day at a time and go from there. Sometimes itās one second at a time and thatās ok. Nothing wrong with that. Just keep going!
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Amen 
to that... I agree.
Because your worth it , thatās why not .
Tools - meetings , step work , excercise, sponser, community , journaling , chocolate / sour patch kids , music , playing the tape all the way thruā¦.. you got this 
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My best tool is to play the tape! If I drink tonight I know Iāll finish it off first thing in the morning and be drunk all day tomorrow and the vicious cycle will have begun. Iāll start isolating out of shame, Iāll cut off my sober connections, my anxiety will take control and life will become unmanageable. Hang in there sis and play that tape
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My addiction tells me all kinds of thingsā¦ stuff like āWouldnāt it be nice to kick back?ā Or āI really love the flavorā but conveniently forgets about sleeping in the bathroom so that I can be near the toilet when I inevitably start puking again, waking to injuries, waking up to empty bank accounts, finding out that I had hurt people I love and have no memory of it. My addiction wants to kill me but will settle for making me miserableā and itās really good at what it does.
I have to be ready for its lies.
Iām so grateful to have tools in my tool belt (steps, sponsor, meetings, gratitude lists, meditation, prayer, phone numbers of fellows,etc.)
I made it through another day and tomorrowās a new day.
I gotta stay vigilant.
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I have already started reading the book. Thank you for the great idea.
Wow, thank you Charlie I am currently on Sober Powered. It is soooo good!
I do not believe in a program but a comprehensive strategy. That encompasses a AA type or similar program, getting educated on substance abuseby reading and any other info source. All addictions manifest in the same manner, prayer and guidance from God. And the will to succeed I do not use AA term higher power I believe in Jesus Christ as my God
It doesn't get better
WE Get Better
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That may also include professional therapy. I went to group out patient therapy. It helped me figure out and come to terms with my inner conflicts
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I've been in 18 years, there's a lot of veterans in my group, and most have amazing, epic, sad, and inspiring stories. I suggest go again. Bring a friend if your uncomfortable, because you'll never know what a veteran will say lol.