I have had a horrible year. Chronic relapse, no matter how I try, I have so many challenges in life and little support. I'm coming back again, and I am having such a hard time these days. I'm so tired of this cycle of shame, and helplessness. I'm powerless and my life is unmanageable, I just want to get well!
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I can relate this year has definitely been a rough year for me I wanted to give up but when the opportunity presented itself I took a chance on it and I turned my will over to the care of God which is step 3 also putting in the work Courtney. Also praying & taking it one day at a time if that makes you sense trust me it's hard but it's fair it'll get better.
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Iam here with you this year I gave away everything now homeless I cannot count time times I've relapse today is only day 3 still going through withdrawals not easy but with God's help and all the support from AA group iam sober that's what matters dont give up you are stronger then you think and your not alone
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You are stuck in a loop! Change your story right now this second and keep going back to the new story. Its going to take alot of strength to continue going back to the more preferred version of you but you can do it!!! We create heaven or opposite in our lives with our words and thoughts…
Listen to “the game of life and how to play it” by Florence Shinn on youtube. Theres an anazing version by nevillution created by a woman with a beautiful voice. She has hundreds of videos that can help you turn your life around. Take care! 
Your support is here. Keep showing up. Ask questions, dump what you can’t carry and let others support you.
Once a chronic relapser and very bullheaded, I thought I’m strong enough alone, I know how to do it, I’m text book smart, etc etc I had all the excuses to isolate. I grew and got stronger the more I helped others. There’s a special type of dynamic that happens when we set down what we’re going through to help someone else. It was like I was re-reading what I wrote back to myself. It’s true though. It also kept me busy. The underlying issues I kept avoiding were what kept me stepping backwards. What I do? Dove in head first into books, podcasts, meetings for the first year, stayed active and changed friend group, placed I went and when I was tempted immediately reached out.
"chronic relapse" is the opportunity to learn how to make changes to reduce the relapses. When you look at the past year and compare it to previous years, ask yourself how much progress have you made? Was it one day more than before, 2 weeks, one month? You're taking small steps to build up to something more substantial than what you have now. Keep it going and don't give up.
I can relate. 1 year, relapsethen divorce then my sister passed and bam more relapses then 2 arrests for drunk and disorderly and 30 days in rehab. BUT it gets better I'm almost 8 months and I go to AA 2x a week and therapy too. IT GETS BETTER!
Been there, done that. You have it within yourself to break the chains away. You are amazing, you have so much to work for, people and family love you and want to see you happy again..
I kept looking myself in the mirror every day and saying good things about myself. I ended my statements with I am going to make today my b**ch and stay sober 1 more day. Try it, it worked for me. Almost 4 years sober.
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