Struggling, and gratitude

Struggling Help
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I'm almost 90 days sober from alcohol. So Saturday while I was watching Money In The Bank, (wrestling) I had my first intence craving. The main event was sponsored by Fireball whiskey. At first I was joking about it when I said "Nomnomnom." Hyrom (my son) and E (my other half, almost 4 yrs clean) were joking with me but serious at the same time. There was a point about 5 seconds in where everything but the TV was muffled. All I could see and hear was that. I was on the verge of tears for what seemed like forever, until Esther (my 4 yr old) started crying because she hurt herself, then everything came back to normal. I didn't understand why until Evans (E) had explained it to me today. I am proud of myself for riding through it. Especially not knowing what it was. Thank you Esther for getting me out of it. Not that I want her hurt. Lol. Thinking about the craving hurts my heart. In a way, I feel violated. So many emotions. ATM, all I know is that I am proud of myself for being successful. I love my family and thank you.

Just for today.

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#2

Nice story , I will like to connect

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#3

Thanks for sharing Jesse, and way to go on staying true to yourself. This is inspirational to me.

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#4

Good job

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#5

Thank you. I'm almost 3 months sober. It's been hard.

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#6

It's been easier for me sometimes than other. Sometimes so easy, then I would forget why I would rather drink coconut water than alcohol. Trying to remember here, feeling good about it today.

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#7

Way to go! I too am having strong urges and ride them out while trying to stay busy. I've found that keeping my hands occupied helps my urges and cravings. Keep up the good work!

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#8

So proud of you for pushing through it and reaching out to a sober friend.

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#9

Thank you. This is the FIRST intence craving I've had since I started recovery almost 3 months ago.

#10

Thank you

#11

I was watching it too! When I saw the giant ladder in the men’s match that Americano Grande planted I looked at my friends and said “this is mildly triggering rn” and distracted myself till it was gone. It was really the first time that like advertising in tv really made me think about drinking in my almost 3 years.

Glad we have great family and great friends to get us through things like that!

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#12

Yes. Same here. The ladder itsself didn't bother me. It was the announcement of the sponsorship for the match. It was a d@mn good match tho. Good on us for staying strong!

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#13

Great job!!

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#14

Great job “surfing the urge”. It’s like a wave that will crest & fall. If all of you who are struggling could just look up Annie Grace, then she can help you all … she’s the BEST!!! She will help you all get rid of your false beliefs surrounding alcohol. We don’t need that addictive substance!! You just “believe” that you do. I have lost all interest in alcohol with the help of Annie Grace & without desire there is no longer any temptation

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#15

Not sure how but you're welcome. Glad I could help someone. :blush:

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#16

I think driving towards our goals despite how we feel, and looking to address how we feel as well is helpful, I see you doing this and I have a ways to go for 90 days this time. That's inspiring to me.

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