Struggling at 2.5 years. I am always so busy and want a break. working 3 jobs, behind on schoolwork, this is my last semester before I graduate with my masters but I want to self sabotage. Sometimes my disease tells me that I really miss not trying so hard and the feeling of giving up feels so desirable to me now. I logically know using will only fuck ho my life but a part of me doesn’t really care. Hoping this makes sense to some of you. I also just am sick of the people at the meetings around me. I need a new sponsor and I am moving to FL in 2 months. Looking forward to meeting new support down there. Love this app so dae
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'Morning, Danielle.
It definitely sounds like you have too much on your plate; and you're being triggered. Do you have to work 3 jobs?
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I can relate. I'm sick of the people at my homegroup. As they say in the program, I don't like everyone but I love everyone. But right now I want to choke half the group. But my program has given me the tools to not do it. Lol. 
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Ty unfortunately right now I do need all the jobs since my work salary was cut. It’s manageable , I have just had so much stress.
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I have to remember that my sobriety is the common denominator in all other areas of my life. Don't give up. Give back to someone your experience, strength, and hope and see how it changes the other pressures in your life. Best wishes!
Don’t give up. When it gets like this for me, I just remember my last time out and how I never want to feel that way again.
And I hear you about the meetings and the people. It does get old. Best you try a different group for a bit at the very least.
I’d suggest also to talk with your sponsor about how you feel. Is it them, or is it your present outlook?
Hi Danielle,
I am in a grad program as well for addiction studies. I don’t feel extremely privileged that I don’t have a job and am able to focus on my school. Stop and breathe for a second. Evaluate if you can change something up to allow more time for yourself. Your being sober is the most important thing so making sure that comes first will be important. Ask yourself if you can change anything about what you are currently doing and push it out to a later date. Sometimes for me I have this time clock going off in my head on how soon something should be completed by. I wanted to graduate this semester but it was not in the cards and I have made peace with that decision. Several others in my cohort did the same thing and watching others struggle to get through the semester and many of them are not in recovery. Let me know how I can help!