Struggling bad when I am clean I don't even know who I am I don't know me
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Deborah read this and maybe it will help you in some way. Even if it's a laugh or if it can make you smile for a minute. Just know you are not alone. Getting clean & sober is hard, but it's worth it. I promise it is! I've been battling addiction for 30 years. Since I was 12 years old. Idk how to live and be sober, Idk how to be an adult and be sober. I don't how to be a Father and be sober, but I am learning everyday. One day at a time, one step at a time, one foot in front of the other. Hang in there, you'll be glad you did. Just think when you win this fight, you'll be on a whole other level l. You beat this and you will be so strong physically, emotionally, and mentally that anything else that presents itself on any kind of negative way in your life will be so easy to overcome. You got this! One day at a time! You're doing good! I'm proud of you! Now back to what I wanted you to read and find the humor in....
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A bit more humor in this version...
So, picture this: Iām a 30-year faithless addict, cruising down the highway to he!! like Iām in a one-man paradeācomplete with confetti made of bad decisions! 
Every exit sign was just a reminder that I was on the express lane to disaster. āHey, look! Thereās āRegret Roadā and āDenial Driveāāoh, canāt forget āShame Streetā!ā It was like a theme park for my poor life choices!
But thenāplot twist! By the grace of God, I woke up one day and said, āYou know what? Iām done being the star of my own tragic comedy.ā So here I am, 29 days sober and climbing this stairway to heaven like itās an escalator at a mall! 
Seriously, Iām practically doing the cha-cha up those steps!
And let me tell you, sobriety is like getting a VIP pass to life. Suddenly, I can taste food again! Who knew broccoli could be soā¦ green? And my brain is like a computer that finally updated from Windows 95 to something that actually works! My thoughts are no longer bufferingāunless itās just me buffering in awkward social situations.
I mean, Iām not saying Iām perfect nowāmy laundry still looks like itās auditioning for a reality show called āWhat Not to Wear.ā But hey, at least now Iām not wearing my mistakes on my sleeve!
So hereās to 29 days and counting! Each day is like a new episode of āSurvivor: The Real World,ā and guess what? Iām winning immunity challenges left and right! If I can do this, you can too. Just remember: if you find yourself on that highway to he!!, you can always take the next exit and find your way back to the stairway to heaven. 
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Me too...I don't know who I am if I'm not high
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I feel the same when Iām sober. Almost like on auto pilot floating along in life. Hope you feel better
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Yeah I started using at the age of 12 I'm 55 now and still having relapse and the bad thing about it is I'm mad at myself about it but at the same time I'm not I just don't know but I do think you for your words
Yeah I started using at the age of 12 I'm 55 and just have really started getting serious about it
I don't like the person I am when clean
I think what's bothering me so kushner listen to it and watch the video and it's so mean with dope
Iām not sure what you meant, Iām sorry. Could you explain it again