Struggling to find any meaning. Sobriety doesn't feel good. Nothing

Recovery
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Struggling to find any meaning. Sobriety doesn't feel good. Nothing does

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#2

I’m happy you’re here on this app. We’re all here for you Becky! :heart:

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#3

Thank you!

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#4

I am also about a month in and feel like I hit a wall. Early recovery is tough. Stay strong :muscle:t2: :white_heart:

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#5

I've got about 4 and 1/2 months in and I've hit a serious wall !! For the last few days !! And normally I'm a happy person ... Hang in there. I know that's easier said than done ....

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#6

I’m sorry that you’re feeling this way. It’s a tough road to get your life back and you’re not going to regret continuing on. You must ground yourself and find a way to get endorphins through exercise and fight the depression that hits in waves. I pray that you can stay strong and defeat it.

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#7

Sounds like you're off the pink cloud. Make adjustments to your routine, see what sticks, drop what doesn't. This is the opportunity to reconnect with what makes you happy and gives you joy.

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#9

Thanks for sharing, and I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I'm starting over today. And looking forward to healing and staying sober.

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#10

I know I’m late to the party, but I just wanted to thank you Becky for posting that you are struggling. Sounds weird but the struggle is real and I have been going through it this last week also! Not that I like to hear that you or anyone else is in a bad place, but I guess it just feels like maybe I’m not so isolated and terminally unique as i think. Listen, I don’t give advice and I can’t tell you how you are going to succeed in coming out of this slump. What I can share is my absolute guarantee that this too shall pass! Hang in there. Hang out. Hang tough. Hang loose. But no matter what, hang on!!!

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#11

Good news is, you got your feelings back. You are no longer sedating to avoid them. Bad news is, you got your feelings back! Best news is, you have living breathing examples of how to learn to deal with the feelings in a healthier way. I had to learn to feel, deal and heal with the fellowship’s help, God’s love and protection and a little thing called therapy.

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#12

Thank you all for your support!

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#13

Recovery is a process. You come into it without any skills of how to live life in lifes terms. We have to do a lot of work to change old beliefs and lies. Our value system and code for life was distorted. We had a pay off in getting high. That was our life's mission. We dont know anything else. So it makes perfect sense that you think and feel the way you do. Its part of the process.we need to do work and we need guidance and direction from those who have been successful at their own journey. Ask others about what they did and the results they got, then follow in their footsteps. It takes people outside of us, if we could do it on our own, we would have done it already.
Peace and love

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#14

@becky393235 Welcome to the world of Becky G 2.0.
Becky G 1.0 was the tornado destroying everything in its path.
Becky G 2.0 is all about restoration and rebuilding everything Becky G 1.0 destroyed.
The meaning? There is nothing left for Becky G 1.0 to destroy. Now that Becky G 2.0 is sober she sees the damage that was left behind and it's not good.
Now the arduous task of rebuilding begins.
Get to rebuilding...

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#15

Thank you :purple_heart:

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Why so dark? No family or friends or anyone who you care about? Start there, start with love

#17

What are you grateful for? What do you enjoy?
Some service might be good. Volunteering somewhere, doing something to help someone somewhere, anyone anywhere

#18

Anytime sister! You can message me anytime as well!

#19

It may not feel like it now, but a bad day sober will ALWAYS be better than a bad day using. You feel it in the morning, or maybe sooner. I’m only past my first month clean and somedays I get bored with all the time I have. Do you like art? Creativity thrives in boredom. Maybe paint something abstract, or try a coloring page, maybe even a puzzle

Now’s the time to reach out to your support system. Thank you for your honesty and good luck♥️

#20

I hope that you find the strength and peace to continue the fight. Stay safe

#21

Everyday I am grateful that when I laugh I feel it all the way to my soul. When I'm sad I feel it all the way to my soul. When I'm afraid I feel it too. It's been so long that to be rewarded by feelings no matter how afraid I am they are better than the alternative. They are after all JUST feelings and they don't have to rule my world. I only have to feel them