Struggling today. My mind won’t stop dwelling on the past and I feel like a complete failure in life. How do you move on from what feels like a lifetime of defeat and failure?
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Personally, I had to feel the emotions. Give myself time and do exactly what you’re doing… reach out and stay connected. After about four years, I got a therapist and I start learning about trauma and honestly that was probably the best thing I could’ve ever did because I had no idea how much I was carrying around in my nervous system. You’re not a failure you’re human, rooting for you.
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Thanks! It’s good to hear feedback and know that others can relate. Today is just one of those days. I’m telling myself that not drinking about it is a victory itself.
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Pete, I felt like that in my early sobriety. I did the 12 steps of AA to the best of my ability several times. Through this process I learned that my seemingly endless failures and losses were actually my greatest strengths!
Yeah I know it sounds crazy but it’s true. My experiences have given me the ability to help others realize that they’re not alone and that they too can be free from self pity and loathing. Ultimately by helping others we have meaningful purpose, relationships and self worth.
17 years of grateful sobriety because of service. I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions
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Well you're not alone bro we're going to have days like that but just keep pushing on man stay in prayer bro praying for you
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Appreciate you saying this and for invite and being available! 
thanks for the support!
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Of course brother. I meant what I said and I’m here for you.
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Yes. I feel that most of us can feel like this and have hard days of not being able to move past it. Take comfort in knowing you aren’t alone in this. I’m n the moment it helps me to focus on gratitude. I try to be in the moment and be grateful for that exact moment in time. Breathing, feeling and living despite the past. “I deserve to live in THIS moment and be grateful for this life.”
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You got it bro you're very welcome
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That’s the hard part, staying in the now and the moment. I’m learning, and happy to say I did not drink about it. 2 months tomorrow!
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I felt this today I've been in the same boat lately
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Hang in there! I keep telling myself ‘just one day at time’.
A lot of prayer to Jesus
Hi Pete. Healing is a long process. I find when I have those feelings the best for me is having a conversation with God. Right when you're having them. Unfiltered, non religious, just emotion. It was through those conversations I got to know God as i knew him and learned about myself too. I'm not those things in my head, but I do need to talk about them. There are some good suggestions on here and I hope you find a few that work right when you're having them. God is here every second of every single day. I talk to him like my best friend. My verbiage is colorful, and my humor is not saintly. But I figure, he made me and loves me as i am. So that's what he gets. I hope you find the blessing that you are. 
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I have this happen regularly too. Worries about the past, future and present. I know how to let go of the things I can not control and try and do better at this skill every day.
Someone posted the following advice from their Dad who had years of sobriety. It said look at your feet to remind you of where you are right now. Where you are in the present. Not the future or past. Where you are now.
I am trying to do this when I can. Wise words with practical advice for me.