I really want to use but I can’t because my mind is telling me that alone I have a best friend but its my ex wife and im still in love with her but i dont think she will be back. Me back out there is not a good thing because im not a good person while im using.
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Personally, drinking or using never makes anything better. I used to avoid feeling. It can be uncomfortable, but it's well worth it.
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Take it from the ex-wife of an addict who wore out all the good graces....Focus on being a good man. Grieve the relationship. Love will find its way back to you.
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Alec, we do not use or pick up no matter what. To alleviate our addiction and painful feelings we use the tools of the 12 step program. Meetings, service, step work, prayer and meditation.
Are you working with a sponsor?
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Stay focused, you are worthy, you are a good person. Right now you have to focus on healing and getting better. If it is meant to be God will bring you back together. Let go and let God....
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It sounds like you’re carrying a lot right now. Staying sober is one of the best things you can do for yourself.
You deserve healing, even if things feel overwhelming. Focus on taking it one moment at a time and leaning on the support here. You’re not alone in this.
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You have to feel it to heal it.
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