So much on my mind. Just had a fuck3d up one night stand that left me empty af feeling not good enough . I love this app however. I’m itching to get into rehab. I got accepted. I can go anytime. Just addicted to running the block and selling drüg$. What if I fail in rehab and the girls are bullying ¢unts like last time.
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People can be rude freaking asssssssssssholes. Yet attempt to not let that break what you can be. People will leave us feeling empty and dead and as though we got nothing left in the tank. The desire to heal yet worry about the aspect of being vulnerable with others in a pack tribal group threat can leave us feeling like why even let my guard down with anyone. The only person you have to let your guard down is with yourself and give a huge middle finger to everything else.. don't let all the negative shiiiittt intimidate you or stop your progress wherever you want it to take you. You deserve so much better
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Nice, kind people can help make it better. However don’t let cold- hearted bitches break you. You are doing this for you, not the bitches .
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sorry for the language
The main thing is u have to want it, if I wasn't a 100% I didn't even bother because speaking for myself 99% wasn't enough
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Go to rehab. Stop trying to run shït, you're obviously terrible at it. No need to worry about being bullied if you're actually trying to disassociate from that nonsense. Get in there, get clean, get a sober network and get out and get your life sorted out. Leave the nonsense to the nonsensical.
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Go to rehab and stay away from the girls.
Don’t give up on yourself! Ivan guarantee that you will get better if you’re able to get through this and jump into sobriety. No one else will do it for you and you will be blown away by how great life will be and how much better you will feel!
Life is short don’t make it shorter
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Do it for you, don't worry about anyone, make a plan and stay away from drama. Especially if you've been through this before, you'll know what to avoid? Stay safe
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Get some numbers talk daily multiple times a day and open mind going in will help a lot ! You got this !!!!!
The world as we know it(one night stands) does not have a good track record. Having said that, relationships are a very bad idea in early sobriety. Most people that get into relationships in early sobriety end up relapsing.
Having trouble staying sober only compounds relationship problems.
Been there, done that.
If you're having trouble staying sober you can try NA/or AA meetings. Alcohol is a drug. More and more alcoholics have become more accepting of drug addicts in AA meetings.
I've been sober almost 9 yrs. I was a daily drunk and I did it without treatment the last time.
Word to the wise; you're a beautiful young woman. Stay away from the guys in AA/NA.
Relationships are not a solution. Stick with the women.
If you stay sober, 1, 2 years from now you'll be seeing through a different set of lenses.
Here are the promises of AA.
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Please do rehab for you. Remember the twelve step programs are for you. You can be the person you dream of being. Feeling horrible gets us into sobriety. Sobriety gives us amazing change.
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Please stop beating yourself up and go to rehab. You can do this.
I used to run the streets of Colorado it's fun but it does have an end and you have to get better at some point
Sammy
I don't know what your drug of choice was but treatment might be a better option for you. I would just go. And when you get out, get to meetings as much as possible.
I've talked to a few people who have recovered from drugs. One has over 3 yrs, another 8 and one over 20.
Recovery is possible.
Relapse happens because we keep believing that the fix or drink is a solution, but it lets us down everytime.
In AA we call this the insidious cycle of insanity. Let me give you something from AA that can be applied to drug addiction too.
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“Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are
restless, irritable and discontented
unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the
phenomenon of craving develops,
they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience
an entire psychic change
there is very little hope of his or her recovery.”
Getting to meetings and taking the 12 steps lifts the obsession and gives us that psychic change.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life. What you do with it is up to you.
If you really want a better life, please get to rehab and focus on yourself! You can do this if you want it!
Yeah…. It gets old.
I went to a co-ed rehab that I think helped with a lot of things. A bunch of dudes together starts feeling a lot like a prison environment imo. Women together , Ive heard there's a lot of what you are talking about and forming into cliques. The place I went to usually stayed around 50/50, with it saying no more than 60/40 % one way or the other depending on admits. I went to other places and just clashed with assholes here and there. The presence of females, even old or lesbian or whatever, calmed me down ( best friend out of there is a 71 yr old woman). The women said the same thing that our presence helped with the clique stuff. Anyhew , they are a bit more rare but I'm sure you have some co-ed places around you. Obviously, there's a few more rules, like no touching and stuff to keep down the shenanigans, but I couldn't recommend it more, especially if you usually run into problems with your own gender , like us 🤷.
Anyhew, good luck
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