Every time I feel like I’m drowning I always go to it. How do I stop
Hi Joey, It’s easier said than done. Find someone/something/somewhere else to run when you feel like that. I had a hard time with this too. Especially, when my wife left. I found people that truly care about me, old friends and new AA folks. I leaned hard on them and they propped me up. I also said the serenity prayer a lot. Staying clean and putting in the work is worth it, 100. Stay strong my friend.
Keep busy, reach out to us here, shout to positive people/ family. Those that are aware of your addiction and your struggle will have no problem being there for you. we just got to speak up let them know
You stop one day at a time, and it's not easy but it will save your life. Honestly for me meetings are a lifesaver when I feel like drinking to make life's problem go away. Meetings at least get me refocused, I enjoy the fellowship, and it gives me strength I wouldn't have on my own, hope that helps.
You have that strength inside you... It may feel lost but, it's not.... I cannot offer any better advice then what has already been written. I just want you to know you aren't alone and yeah it can feel impossible but, if nothing else the freedom you will feel away from it will impower you SO MUCH and keep you fighting!
Call your sponsor, read the book and do the steps , somewhere between step 1 and 12 you’ll find relief
Sit back and think about all the terrible things that this poison has caused you. Make a list and read it every time you get triggered. It is not your friend. Keep busy! Volunteering is a great coping mechanism!!!