Hello. I am an alcoholic and i am struggling not to pick up a drink today. 6 years ago, i met the love of my life in AA. . I thought we would support each other but we spiraled down together instead. I am not with him since 3 years and i also had to cut the friendship link since it triggered me to pick up a drink and he is still drinking and smoking weed. He hurt me psychologically when he drank. I talked to him today - i had too for practical reasons and it triggered me - i did not drink though- but i feel very sad. AA did not work for me it did the reverse because i was told i did not reached rock bottom and it was useless. So please dont judge or lecture. I really love that person but i can't be with him it hurt and makes me want to drink. Help
Do what your heart tells you
If i see him i will relapse
I understand
I totally get what you are talking about I have a similar story but it is not exactly the same understand your struggle and your triggers today I am 51 days clean but yet have come so far in my road to recovery which started in 2022 if you'd like to talk more I'm willing to listen my number is 520-632-3522
I know what you're going through I had to do the same thing I'm better for it, just know you're worth
Everyone's path is different. There's alot of different ways to recover. find out what works for um
I am feeling a bit better. Did not pick up the first drink. Just one day at the time. I am sticking up to my choices. Not seeing this person. He made his choice. It was me or the alcohol. He chose the alcohol. I am not sure how this makes me feel but the benefit of being drama free and waking up clear headed in the morning is priceless.
Thank you
Natalie, please be kind and gracious to yourself. The program works when we work it properly. Unfortunately that is easier said than done. You are doing great. Keep up the good fight and know that you've got this and you are not alone in your struggles.