Just can't seem to stop drinking. Had 8 years of sobriety about 8 years ago just after my mom passed from cancer. I've been in the rooms of AA again since Feb of this year. I've put 30 days together 2x but that's it. I am a Doctor Seuss drinker: happy, mad, sad or glad - i want to drink. Every morning i wake up and say I'm not gonna drink. I pray throughout the day and then i find myself drinking (again) and doing it all over again. Hence, an AWFUL merry-go-round. 
I’m with you, I only have a week since my last bender and it’s starting to get better, slowly. Keep trying, you’ll find it.
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