So I relapsed last year when I got Covid, being a complete baby when I felt symptoms and was feeling kinda shitty I went back like because of that and I’ve been stuck using since then and it’s so disappointing. I was so blessed to get to go to Mexico to done plant medicines that have for the most art the highest success rate. I did a Ibogaine Ceremony then about a week after that did a 5MEO DMT Ceremony then a Ayahuasca ceremony. This was the most profound and important event in my life it truly allowed me the chance to get a long stretch of sobriety and a life that o felt proud of. I was sober and so dedicated for a little longer then a year and then the whole Covid thing happened and I legit fell apart and made the poorest decisions without any deep thought or contemplation I went from sober and working my recovery to in a minutes decision I was taking a hit and right back to the spot I left off and hated so much. So now I’ve been using and just have the deepest disappointment in myself because of my lack of discipline and genuine desire I guess. Anyway I try to involve myself in the recovery world by trying to have sober life issues in my daily routine. This helps quite a bit but the addiction and not wanting to get sick cause I am the ultimate baby. So that makes it hard for me to make the necessary decisions I know I need to make to get the opportunity to get clean. Well I know it’s coming soon cause I involve it in my life daily and try to keep that accountability in my life. Well that’s my situation and I just want to say that having a community like this to get to talk to and speak on thing that we usually don’t talk about because we don’t have someone that we know has no judgment and is just like me. Finding this app has got me really excited and I look forward to what can come into my life in the near future.
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We can all just prepare the best for when it might happen again
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We are human
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