Constant marijuana use has reduced my life to such a degree that I have to do something before it gets any worse. All of my good habits are gone, I’ve gained weight, my depression has worsened and I’ve completely withdrawn. Things aren’t all bad so I can’t call it rock bottom, but my mental state is worsening and I’m always trying to numb myself. I went through a breakup right before the holidays and my emotions are bubbling to the surface after stuffing them down for the sake of work and the continuous celebrations. Now I have a camping trip coming up where I know I have to be social with people who will be drinking heavily. I don’t want to drink, I don’t want to smoke. I just want to find peace in nature and have my son enjoy time with friends. I want to be able to do that too, but with all of the consumption, I’m going to be in a tough spot. How can I make everyone happy while also keeping myself healthy? I can’t, I have to do it for me and stop worrying whether everyone is happy with me or not. My mental state is more important in the long run and I don’t need to be drinking or smoking to have fun or to be fun. In order to get back to the person I know I am inside, I need to get healthy and sober.
The little voice inside you is screaming for help. It’s good that you are finally listening to it! We know deep down inside when things aren’t right. As addicts/alcoholics, we quiet this voice by numbing ourselves. It’s a nasty vicious cycle that needs to be broken. Thank goodness you have gotten to this point without losing everything…yet. First, don’t let anyone tell you that marijuana is not addictive and all that other bs. To some of us it is! I smoked it 24/7/365 for many years. It’s the way I coped with life…until I got to that point where I was basically just a walking zombie. Let others debate its benefits and safety.
Eventually I suggest you get involved with a recovery program of some sort. This is a great little tool for additional support, but ultimately it’s best to build some sober friendships so that you can begin to have a sober social life to add some balance to the “party” influences around you.
Definitely on the right train of thought by not wanting to "make everyone happy " and just focus on you and your boy. You can't give what you don't have, so if you don't have peace in yourself, you can't give it out in the world. If you honestly don't think you can abstain from drinking or smoking in that environment right now, don't go. Do something else w your son instead. It sounds like he is your rock, your anchor, so do it with him and for him. In the grand scheme of things, it's one camping trip vs your family and happiness. No Brainer. The fact that you are reaching out and have doubts is a good thing, and maybe a sign you already know the answer.
Practicing a program of recovery has freed me from much of what you are suffering from. You definitely have the willingness to do something about it. Today is a perfect day to stay sober.
One day at a time.
You’ve taken the step of admitting that you have a problem. Now I suggest you follow up with action. Get to a meeting and see if you identify.
Glad your here.
I am an alcoholic. In working a program against that addiction I am able to recognize parallels in other behaviors in my life, such as gambling and eating. It’s a blessing that I can recognize it because I now have a blueprint of how to change my behaviors. I’m not overwhelmed because I know I can. I’m am always gonna work to be a better version of me. Thank you for posting this
Ugh exactly my struggle.. drinking to feel fun or be fun cuz (atleast in my head) it’s a fact that I’m more fun.. insecure without it? 
The stuff is so strong these days that I’ve heard it’s easy to get addicted to it and it’s a harbinger to drinks. In the past, at lower levels of THC, it doesn’t seem to have been that much of a problem.
AA saved my life literally
Can you, your son, and another person or do go camping without pot and alcohol being part of the experience? Are you addicted to marijuana? It’s got about same addiction rate as alcohol (around 7%). If so, you might want to consider various options open to you. Hope you can make the trip without worries!