Writing poems helps me keep perspective.. this one's called "finding self"
If i can cut down on my consumption of substances,
It might make up for my corruption, injustices.
if I could take back all the pain I caused when I was high,
I'd do it even if it meant that I was gonna die.
But I don't feel the shame that I used to feel anymore,
cuz I can feel my own inner light shining more and more.
I know that my addiction is an anchor,
a ball and chain.
If I get rid of it, there goes the anger,
and all the pain.
if I went back to using meth my life would go right down the drain.
I'd end up living on the street and then I'd go insane.
I can't let all of the work that I put in be in vein.
If I can hold myself accountable there's much to gain.
I'll need all the coping mechanisms that i can attain.
I'll stay away from party spots, find some new terrain.
Gonna dig my heals in and keep both fists up.
Gonna pray to God till love overfills my cup.
Loneliness is my sobriety's biggest threat.
Together anxiety and regret will make me sweat.
My time has come, I had my alarm set.
The best of my life is still ahead of me yet.