Im having such a awful day like I came to live with my mom in a different state so i could get clean. Ive been going to meetings and met a lot of people but no one i really click with its a super small cow poke town. Theres no public transportation no ubers no where to even walk too. My moms never had a nice thing to say to me and her constant nit picking at every single thing I do is really wearing on me. We dont talk about feelings so theres no “your really hurting my feelings” going to even be heard. I dont even know why im posting this
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I have some really sucky days too,I also have days that are absolutely beautiful!! The beautiful days are the easy ones, it’s my dark sucky days that I have to fight, pray, talk to like minded people. Etc..,, but you can do it! You are strong and a child of God, call or cry out to him for help!
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Feel free to message me anytime you’d like to talk or just be heard😊
Thanks I appreciate it
You’re posting this because you need to vent! You are getting your feelings out. Are you able to order some earbuds for music ? Can you order a journal? Do you have wifi where you are ? Take some deep breaths… you didn’t drink over it, so you are ok. 
Send me a friend request if you want to talk further. 
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Hey hit me up on messages. I'm almost 6 years off meth.
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I would listen to Florence Shinn books on youtube and old timers like Neville and Joseph Murphy to imagine your new life. Ignore whats happening and change it inside. I swear it will work! Ive been changing everything internally for months now and it is catching up now. Its almost freaky to start seeing the change actually happen from me just changing my stories qnd assumptions! We manifest constantly with our thoughts and words and get caught in loops but with strength in the mind we can break out!! I unconsciously created garbage my whole life and now consciously create the best! I dont hope things will get better with your situation!!! I know they will be amazing if you take my advice! 
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The bad days come just as the good days as well. I definitely relate to family being a trigger. You can get through this and over time come up with what you can set up as healthy boundaries. Glad you have this space to vent so it doesn't build up into something worse.
@tesscha390303 I say this with all sincerity... Breath. You're going to be alright.
Where is this "super small cow poke" town you speak of?
Be thankful for what you presently have. It could be worse. You have a roof over your head. You're sleeping on a bed and not the sidewalk or bench.
Who knows this just might be a transition stage of your life. Depending on how your spiritual condition is your higher power (God) just might have something better in store for you right around the corner.
When you’re feeling bad, take a walk, jump on a zoom meeting. You’re not going to change your mom but if you continue in your program maybe she’ll change. Did you join a group, do you have a sponsor, are you working your steps. Being sober and clean is tough but if you give it 100% in a few months you’ll be able to pick up the pieces and make a new, better life for yourself. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Do you have a big book? If yes read it if no, get one if your group doesn’t have one you can get one on Amazon. It’s a simple program. It works.
Try some zoom meetings. Don’t stop the in person, but maybe you can find a few ladies on zoom that you can connect with that can add to your sober world