Super disappointed at myself. Decided to grab Mexican last night since my boyfriend got called to work and sat at the bar. Thought I’ll just treat myself to a margarita since I’d been so good, then I had 2. Big mistake and I own it. I got home and was drunk (low tolerance since I’d stopped drinking) texted my boyfriend texts that didn’t even make any sense. Woke up feeling bad today. Headache nauseous
Lesson learned I just can’t drink anymore. I’m grateful my boyfriend didn’t break up with me like we had in past… it’s been an issue when I used to drink I’d texts and say stuff I regretted and it caused us issues… we took a break bc of it. We got back together and I had a drink with him a few weeks ago just one so I thought I could handle it. Nope. I’m done I shown myself I can’t handle drinking anymore. It was a good reminder why I quit and how much I hate feeling like that. Anyway thanks for listening. Sober life is way more enjoyable.
It is a progressive thing.. if you pick back up you are right back where you left off. At least you figured it out after two and not a week long bender with blackouts. Don’t beat yourself up too much. We have all had the “I have been good” thoughts. But one is too many and one more is never enough.
Shannon, thanks for sharing your story. It's often a story of alcoholics that we need to do some more drinking to convince ourselves. Glad to hear you are at a place of acceptance!
Congrats on coming back!
Good advice above. If you realize it as a problem now and can stop it, you are saving yourself years of pain. You’re posting about it here, so it sounds like you know it’s a problem and want to stop. If you need help, just ask. Nows a chance to make a change. Best wishes