I’ve had a lot of death and loss in my life. How do I change the grip on people. Since I was 16 I’ve contemplated suicide based on sexual trauma and death. I just want to feel like I deserve to live for once in my life. To be able to thrive to have more wind under my wings 🪽
Charlie, I feel for you! I was obsessing about suicide while I was using and in early sobriety. But when I thoroughly did the steps and lots of service, I truly healed. The steps help me resolve deep issues and forgive others and myself.
Service help me to have gratitude, compassion and self love for the first time in my life.
I’ll friend request you now. Please let’s talk.
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I’m on my 4th step 2nd time doing it. Honestly it’s just the grief that hasn’t been processed. I’m working my steps keeping my program going. Self love is something I need to work on for sure and self compassion. A lot of healing ❤️🩹
I agree with Danny W. The answers are in the steps. 4 & 5 is the turning point. Those are the action steps along with 8 & 9 where the miracles happen
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I agree w all the comments above but sometimes it’s not enough , I myself was struggling w thoughts of suicide even tho I was feeling good .
My sponsor suggested I find a therapist that along w doing my step work relay helped me over the hump. Hope this helps stay strong !
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Also, keep in mind that making amends isn’t just apologizing for your role in the past it’s forgiving those who have trespassed against us and letting go of resentments from the past such as sexual trauma. Therapy is a good idea too Billy D 
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