I love how y'all come together under other people's post. It's really refreshing.
This is a copied comment that I left on somebody else's post. I hope somebody finds it useful in recognizing one of the reasons that we run back to our addiction or alcoholism when life throws us lemons..
"Yaaaaassss.
I didn't have any other way in my past, any other tools under my belt, on how to deal with conflict, with adversity, with confrontation, with disappointment.no knowledge on how to deal with any of the things that involve dealing with life.
My run too and I assume others have the same issue. Is alcohol and drugs. It's A coping mechanism for a few reasons.
It's easily accessible. as long as I have money or friends willing to contribute the substance. It literally releases and changes chemical compositions in your brain and body, that mimic genuine pleasure and relief.
So when you start consuming the substances your body goes into this mode of disgenuine peace.
Part of my walk in recovery right now, is journaling. I write all these things down about how I feel in certain situations while I'm just under a year sober.
This is essential. I got some jacked up mentalities floating around upstairs. The more I write about them the more I recognize them.
I'm not saying that's going to keep sober. I once I got to a certain part in journaling. I started to recognize these triggers. I started writing out plans on how I would escape without substances or deal with real life issues head on.
Unfortunately this walk into sobriety is going to be an extremely uncomfortable thing. Because once we get that time of sobriety under our belts we got to figure out how to keep it in all situations. Without substances.
Because addiction is a Sly ambitious basarrd that seeks your company in its own glorious misery.
Become humble, seek help! Go to meetings. Get clinical therapy. Consider a treatment center, if you want any amount of time in which to be in a safe place to look at yourself and what causes you to turn back to the drink and or drugs.
I highly suggest this as I've just finished 10 months and sobriety in a treatment center. there's no way with habits and people that I was involved with that I would have had time to stop, look and address the mess that I really became."