Terrified and scared

Struggling Help
#1

I’m struggling because I’m starting over again. I need to stay sober in order to see my kids. My divorce was ugly and I have to complete 90 days of breathalyzer testing in order to see them. My ex has kept them from me for 2 years when I moved out because the situation was toxic. They are 15 and 13 so my time with them is short. I did 62 days right after the divorce and for some reason I drank. I was 2/3 of the way there. I couldn’t even tell you the reason I drank. It was going so well.

Does anyone have any advice of building a sober network? I attend women for sobriety meetings but they are all online or an hour away— so it’s hard to make real connections.

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#2

Ok 3rd try
Hello Michele, it can be quite scary. I've been around a while and close to 18 months sober. This is what I did different this time.
*I went to IOP it helped with finding why I drank

  • I got educated on alcoholism and addiction. Read Alcohol Explained by William Porter. It explains in lay terms what Alcohol does to keep you addicted. Check out Gillian Tietz's website Sober Powered. She has a wealth of information there. Don't stop there there is a ton of info out there.
  • find a program you are comfortable with. It doesn't matter which one. Google Alcohol support group in your area.
  • find your faith in God. Go to church. There is something to be said about prayer that is calming

Always remember you are never alone. Reach out anytime and prayers always :blush::pray::tulip::sunflower:

#3

For me, I have failed when my addiction is stronger than I am, and I believe it's lies.

Alone, I am often weak. As a member of a loving, supportive tribe, they each voluntarily loan me a bit of their individual strength; so that together, I am invincible.

God bless you, and we are praying as we each send you a bit of our individual strength.