It’s my first holiday sober aside from my birthday last week. Looking back over the years remembering how hungover I started my day and how drunk I ended it. I’m thankful to not feel like that anymore. But I also miss it terribly. It’s such a strange feeling that I don’t exactly know how to put into words.
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I hope you feel better soon, and enjoy your thanksgiving.
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Its the weirdest feeling in the world thats for sure, ive been there a few times in thought. Just have to remember why you started this recovery journey and dont let that addictive mind trick you into falling back into old habits.
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Stay strong 
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I be feeling the same way
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Youve got this!! You should be proud you are able to acknowledge what you are experiencing right now, and still not using! Youve got this doll, you arent alone
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I totally get you.
My anxiety is consuming me and I miss being able to tune it out but know I‘m stronger for not. Shew!
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Exactly! I know it won’t be the same either, I heard recently “a hand full of AA knowledge and a belly full of booze is a terrible concoction” and it’s been stuck in my head since.
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That’s fantastic, you made it through the day sober. Get to a meeting and talk about it.
Remember tonight if your head hits the pillow sober, to be grateful for your sobriety. It’s a miracle.
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My addiction wants me dead, but will settle for my misery.
My addiction is evil and wants me back.
I’ve felt as you do many times. Though I must say I’ve never missed the hangovers! Alcoholism is cunning, baffling & powerful! Stay connected to your sober peeps, always.
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It is the strangest for sure but will lessen as the days go on. You got this!
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Yeah I remember my first few holidays sober. I was so worried about how my family would react, what they would say. I can say I have found a new appreciation for the gatherings with my extended family. Where it used to be me black out , acting a fool is now great conversation and fond memories.
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Remember…. Feelings have as much clout as you give them. Stay strong
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I relate to this, I relapsed in another program and I could only keep using for a week, because all my new program knowledge kept coming up in my head & telling me why using was a bad idea. Getting sober again felt like I was coming back into balance.
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Same! It was my first sober thanksgiving in over 10 years… we did it though! My birthday is next month it’ll be my first sober birthday since I was 16…. How was your birthday?
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It was rough. Luckily I have a select few that showed up and got mocktails with me, a nice dinner and a night at an arcade. Gotta say I was very happy to wake up to the birds chirping instead of hearing the birds chirping and saying “no fuckin way”. I hope your birthday goes well, we did do it and we’ll continue to do it!
That sounds like a good time! Mornings are definitely easier now. Yes we will! Happy belated birthday 
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Thank you and happy early birthday to you!
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Thanks!
You are doing awesome. 2 major celebrations and you've maintained sobriety.