So here I am, trying to get sober again. This time I really need to make it work. I can't wake up with that guilty feeling and the anxiety anymore, It's getting worst and worst. For a couple of weeks now I even wake up wishing I was dead. Praying God to come get me. I remember someone in the AA that told me one day that if I couldn't stop or wasn't ready to stop, it's because I still had gas left in me. Now I know I'm running on fumes.. I'm on a mission 
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