Third sober 4th of July in a row! So grateful to post this celebration of my journey! I am grateful today is a day I make the decision to work, rest, clean, read, watch vidoes or what the heck ever me, myself, and I want. Do I feel well? Absolutely 
NOT! I feel like there is concrete in my chest and my head is in a vice. Am I grateful for sleeping long? Absolutely ! I am grateful to have no agenda today. I do not go out to celebrate the fireworks due to a traumatic car wreck on the 4th 20 years ago. I sit with my pups. Little Man, traumatized by living through Hurricane Michael, is terrified of loud noises now. So, calming chews for him and a iced caramel latte for me. SHILOH is wearing a cone from surgery. You'd think it would slow her roll. It hasn't. What it did do is set her confidence in humans back. We will build her back up overtime I feel. Her name means shy and timid in Hebrew. So fitting and appropriate. I am grateful everyday for the little bit of progress in accepting me as her human. She has graciously accepted Little Man. The cone has thrown him into a certain state of something and he doesn't want her near him. This too shall pass.
I am grateful Ms Anne saw my dogvicts running the neighborhood yesterday. I had the call the handyman and be quite firm with my expectations. Like. If he had completed the job well the first time, the dogs would not be getting out today. Now. I HOPE THEY STAY PUT, I suggested running beams of wood horizontally at the base of the fence since they seemed to be digging a little and then pushing on the weaker panel pieces...that he chose to not replace thinking it would be "good enough. " Yeah, so he has had to return 3 times for that specific panel. I hope this idea works. So far, so good.
I am grateful beyond grace for working last weekend. Payday was yesterday 
. I made enough money to pay for the MCAP courses AND by a new book. I am a huge fan of PATTERSON and I got to buy the next in a series that I adore.
I am grateful that yesterday I got to provide a concierge service for a pup named Jasper. He got a chicken foot. He was so adorable with it. A treat for him warmed my heart.
I am grateful today for waking up sober. It is noon. I literally have slept for 10 hours. I feel the urge to go to the office and write those biopsychosocials. There are 3. New formats to be memorized. I also feel the need to listen to my body and rest today. I just do not feel so inspired to write with this cold. I will see if I feel a little better later, because there is no timeframe nor contraints on schedules today. Tomorrow is a different story. 7 to 1 at BPPR, oil change appt at 130 and grocery shopping for the week. Grateful for this day.
I am sober. I am strong. I am ever so grateful for this holiday!
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Congratulations on your Journey