Dealing with the hardest amends I’ve had to make yet. It’s a hefty financial amends I have needed to make to someone that was there for me through my use and tried to help me get back on my feet. They ended up taking the brunt of a car payment as the co-signee. Long story short. Almost 2.5 years sober and I was finally ready to sit down and speak to them and discuss the terms for my amends and insisting that I need to pay restitutions for harms done.
It’s going to be a long process paying this back, but if I have learned anything in the last 2+ years, the hardest things are the right things. When I got sober in the beginning I just wanted the pain to stop. I couldn’t live how I was anymore. I was a horrible drunk, never not with bottle in reach. I had a horrible cocaine habit along with taking hallucinogenics thinking one day I was going to wake up and be normal.
Now that I’ve gotten a few 24s, and have invested into a program; worked with a sponsor after extensive treatment (18 months of rehab), this entire experience is really why I got sober. This was something I was ashamed of, and it haunted me. I drank and drugged over it. Now I get to face it and make things right.
I have learned the true meaning of gratuity. Because I know what I was like, how I got here; and see how it’s becoming. Live Easy But Think First.
you’re right, the hardest things are the right things to do