It was clear when I started that my greatest enemies would be fear and lack of discipline.
I would need to decide what I could change, what I wanted to change and the routines that would get me to a place where I stopped fearing change…for if there’s any constant in this life it’s that the fear of inconsistency will always lead me back to the comfort of my addictive behaviors.
It required courage to make a decision to change myself, the courage to face that I cannot return to being something I thought I was or was trying to be, and the courage to see that sometimes even in sobriety, I still have moments where I’m trying to be something I’m not because I fear not being enough.
When I pause, let go and become present…self love has room to enter and remind me that I am enough, that I am loved and that I am whole.
