As I sneak up on 3 years clean I am reviewing the time it took me get there. I played revolving doors with sobriety for years. Jail, In-out, Treatment, spin dry, ER, psych ward, geographical, etc... I looked for every softer, easier way. In the end, I didn't hit bottom, I drug it. I skipped along the bottom for a couple of months, got hung up a few times and drove away what few acquaintances I had left. By new year I was done, but sadly I had to skid 22 more days to my final treatment.
Yesterday was my birthday. 3 years ago I was sure I was done by then, but had a ten day train wreck left to experience.
I talked to my sponsor today. My sponsor is a gift from whatever God you may believe in. Dude stuck with me when the stuff got real. And real ugly....! We did a quick check in and he asked if I was feeling "jiggy". I responded that in fact, I was quite Jiggy! He just laughed and said, " yep, right where you're supposed to be...!" He said most of the people he's sponsored and even he and his Sponsor all got a bit sideways around 3 years. He said it's somewhat normal. And then he just told me not to do anything crazy and he'd see me on my birthday in 9 days.....
So in three years I've come from almost dead and destitute to "have a cup of tea and chill.."
I'm thinking I'll Keep Coming Back!!